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till my final day let my ashes turn to dust
and let my favorite pair of earrings slowly turn to rust
if you know me proper you know i don't ask for much
i'm forever longing for another human's touch
north jersey living so i'm always in a rush
the streets full of snow but my veins full of blood
i'm flawless in the moment, finely painted by a brush
fallen like the leaves, i'm in motion with the breeze
love, and peace
the only things i need
corruption gets a hold of me and then i'm taking speed
if you know the path to solace, can you take the lead
and if you drain my soul from all this darkness let me bleed
body of a god, but im no god my mental's sick so
i'm looking to the strength of people till i'm fixed
the urges make me feel like i am certain with no purpose
i was murdered on the cold night of december 6
yes i am a solider, but i'm never in the field
i'm armed with a mic spitting verse you can feel
i've gone through emotions that i'm sure will never heal
while you live in fear let me hide behind your shield
welcome to my grave, i relive where i was killed
my body left in pieces i became a landfill
you can see my spirit if you walk behind the hill
walk among the living in the night so i can feel
if you're out there listening i would love to steal your health
but death is lurking awfully close so you should help yourself
keep my spirit bottled up and leave it on the shelf
so every time you think of me you know i'm stuck in hell
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you was out there laughing having fun with your friends
i was by my lonely fantasizing bout my end
thinking bout the past, thinking what i really meant
rinse the pain with alcohol so i get out my head
now im in the blackness for my actions i repent
jealousy and anguish mixes well with the resent
yes i am a taurus i'm a fucking hard head
and i'll keep fucking up until i die a brutal death
look me in my eyes
and tell me what you see
a soul with burning passion or i'm actually just weak
boxcutter scars let my body fluids leak
i live my life in shackles nigga thats just how it be
i slowly suffer passively,
acting out the scenes of a tragedy
my urge to cop a half g is massive, b
actively i write in my sorrow it's fantastic
nothing feels real when my own smile is plastic
the sun.
has left.
*sample plays*
the sun has left my sky
the sun has left my sky
the sun has left my sky
the sun has left my sky
yo yes im giving up yes yes im giving
im staring down the 40 foot cliff i wanna jump
looking in the mirror like "what have you become"
you can't make no friends and nobody thinks you're fun
ever since last week, all i've felt is guilt
i argued with my mom cause pain is all i feel
counting down the seconds until my sorry ass is killed
walking through nostalgic streets so i can feel that chill
you ask me how im doing but you really wouldn't listen
a 4 corner cell, yes i've spent my life in prison
dying all alone, isolation my affliction
i dont have no money rocking worn out true religion
take my by the hand
and save me from myself
im solo tripping acid from corrosion i shall melt
rapping off my ass like it's magic casting spells
all you steady catching action while im laughing straight to hell
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black dissociation
02:36
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im getting lonely i could really use a fight
strike a nigga ass down till that pussy see the light
i don't care what's wrong i don't care what's right
if you talk down on jack we gone knuckle up on sight
destruct by the day build it back by the night
see a monkey ass nigga that's the shit i dont like
coming with that judgement fuck out my sight
if you coming for my mans then im coming for your life, right?
hurry up already, hurry up already
i found the truth but i didn't really get it
skate till my motherfucking clothes all sweaty
taking impact till my fucking bones ready
destroy relationships until my heart ready
pull out my soul put some fucking dark in it
sitting in my room bumping linkin park hits
tatts on my body on my fucking carcass
hurry up already
hurry up already
i just keep on telling myself hurry up already
hurry up already
hurry up already
the truth's in the past could we go back and get it?
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i don't wanna cope i wanna die nigga
disappointed everyday i rise
i keep looking toward my demise
put a guise on my emotions, this is everyday i rise
look me in my eyes looking me in eyes
look into my soul can you see the pain inside
i dont wanna live no more i don't wanna try
i stand by myself, here i stand on the divide
you cannot cry nigga, never fucking cry
the men will call you bitch and the women question why
no one understands me i'll retreat into my mind
but my head is full of anger till i get another line
i gotta lovely girl she got a body count
self harm nigga that's my hobby now
i tell her all my pain but she don't got me
put and end to my body i just wanna get to rotting
yeah im 22 look can you see how far i've gotten?
living in my mom's house, drink when no one's watching
i dont got no friends so i can't tell if i'm toxic
if you heard i died would it really be that shocking?
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chris agony New Jersey
I'm a rapper, producer, and drum and bass artist from Montclair, New Jersey.
add me on discord at: rush coil#3517
let's be friends!
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